Reinventing Myself

Reinventing myself has been a thought quite a few times in my life. I have read "Into the Wild" before and the aspect of living free has interested me for quite some time.
I have always wanted to liberate myself through letting go and chasing after something I yearn for.
    I would take a year off and travel with no destination. I would not go by myself the whole time, but would like some time away.
I do not care where I go. It is the journey not the destination.
After my year off I would pursue a career in theater or acting. I have always had a passion for this scene and want to drop everything and put my heart into a new life.
This reinventing would be very liberating and non foolish. There are always so many opportunities in life. Do not live life with regrets. Go out and live.
That is what I want to do.

Christopher Macandless was foolish, but he was a determined fool. I admire that he went out and explored the wildnerness and his mind.
            The one thing that bothers me is how he just left and kept everyone waiting for some news on him. I have a feeling that he wanted to go out and die in this place of content.
    He so wanted this adventure that he had read in the books. He was determined and very admirable for that, but I still think he is a fool. He searched for that ideal journey that would full fill him.
          I do not know if he found it, but i hope so.

Transcendentalist

Nature is something that is rooted inside of me. The comfort that flows through me is something that I cannot replicate anywhere else.
I grew up in a little development, but nature was just a small walk away. I spent my childhood exploring and relaxing with my friend nature.
    It reminds me of my childhood.
I miss nature. I want to go back and say hello a few times. I want to stay there and keep it company for days upon end.
Nature holds something that is different, and some would say it can be spiritual. I never really spend time pondering nature as a spiritual place, but there is something different and moving about it. Maybe that is the spiritual side talking.

Tolstoy Blog

Society is wired to advance. We cannot stop it. There is no reason to go back to a simpler way.
       If we have these technologies we need to use them to the highest potential.
Yes there are things that do more harm than good, but those harmful aspects of society outway the good. Technology has brought us so many great aspects of our lives and has shaped who we are. If we are to down grade to a simpler time then it just becomes boring.
      I want to wake up and be able to play Call of Duty. If i know that is missing, you will have to take me to the Meadows in state college (Mental hospital). Society as a whole would miss what we do not have.
     I do not want to wear black hats, overalls, and sell whoopie pies! We are fine where we are and where we are headed. We just need to be careful.

My life has changed a lot since I rejoiced the end of the torturous stress of finals.
Starting up school has threw me into a panic mode of unsteadiness. I was not ready to go. The first semester went well for myself. I might have taken less credits than I wanted too, but that is fine with me: I have never been a fan of school anyway.
     Why am I scared for this semester? Because I have different sense. An unknown. I am uncertain as classes get more challenging. 
Over break I thought a lot. I hung out with my friends almost everyday and they provided me with a blanket, even after things did not go my way.
      But yes, I thought a lot. My brain is bouncing back between what I want to do in the future and what I am on track with doing right now.
Stressful is the word I would use. I cannot seem to make my mind up with my silly impulsive brain.

I am going with the flow and hoping for the best.

School is still torturous to me but I do not have to sneak out of the house anymore!


-School is like tripping up the stairs and spilling your books everywhere. It is painful and it makes you feel stupid.-